Translation: who's going to be giving you a paycheck?
I loathe that question. Mainly because when I say, truthfully, "I have no idea," I get that look reserved for aimless losers — the mortal enemy of Type A journalism students the world over. But I really don't have any idea. I want to do a hundred different things... get my MBA and start my own business, or maybe my MFA and become an English professor; go into counseling; work for a non-profit or a sports team; be a professional substitute teacher. Heck, maybe I'll go crazy and actually use my journalism degree to get a job at a magazine.
I know I'll find a job. And I'm not trying to be an overly-confident product of my generation, because I'm fully aware that the world of employment isn't as peachy as we'd like it to be. But I'm fine with starting at the bottom and working my way up, and I enjoy enough things that I'm pretty sure I'll be able to pay the bills one way or another.
What I'm more concerned with is not what I'm going to do, but who I'm going to be. And isn't that the more important question?
I know who I want to be: A woman of God. A woman of integrity and compassion. The kind of person who puts others first and stops to smell the roses. I want to be bold, peaceful, happy. So for now, and perhaps for a bit after graduation, I'd much rather focus on setting the tone for the rest of my life and working on who I want to be — not what.
This post really reminded me of where I was exactly one year ago. People will give you the looks all through your senior year, and it gets so much worse in the spring. It sounds like you're grounded though. Sometime the best things in your life happen spur of the moment. Honestly, I never thought last August I would be working for a publishing company with a car , internet cell phone, and computer as perks, but here I am! God knows what he's doing! So don't let those looks get you down. I have faith you are going to have an incredible job!
ReplyDeleteI love this post. You are a genius, Eliza!
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